You get to a point where you realize that life is all about the risks you take. It's courage, bravery, and heroism in your own special way. A way that fits you and makes you who you are.
The four girls here in Fresno are taking a risk as of right now. Dancing our hearts out for nobody but us. We are here to learn and to soak in knowledge about our bodies and our minds that we are not yet aware of. We're here to discover new experiences and people. We are NOT here to compete.
San Marcos usually has a dance class of about 15 dancers. Today, we had 41 dancers-- 38 girls and 3 boys. Not only was it a shock for me, but I think for the other girls, it was hard to keep our minds straight. How do we see the teacher? How do you get your questions answered? How do you get someone to tell you if you're doing it right?
I'm proud of myself today.
My mom can agree with me on this one-- I am a perfectionist when it comes to these things. Specific things aggravate me to the point of tears. But today I kept my feet going. I blocked out the world, left it at the door, and stepped into a new world where only dance mattered. That's why i'm here. I'm here to become a better dancer. To show myself that I can survive this industry, the choreographers, and the people.
We were talking about the thin line between bravery and stupidity last night before we went to bed. Stupidty is sometimes mistaken for bravery and vise versa sometimes. You can think you're courageous by taking a risk. But to think of the consequences is where the difference lies. If you think about the consequences of what risk you are taking but also tally out the amazing things that will come out of it, you're being brave. To think too much is not bravery, though. Thinking to much is the thin line. That's being a coward.
I've been thinking things a little too hard lately.
But I think you can agree that the four girls here in fresno are taking a smart risk. Putting our bodies in the line of fire, being in an atmosphere that we aren't used to, and trying something not many people have the guts to try is pretty brave if you ask me.
My heart is fierce and WHEN I survive this, I will not only be 20 pounds lighter, but i'll be more brave than EVER!
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About Me
- I am Christina.
- The day my mother gave me wings was the day I started learning how to fly. I'm now realizing that it takes a lifetime to learn how to soar. This is my journey. Well, a part of it.
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I think being aware that you are a perfectionist will help you overcome being one and strife for excellence instead. Awareness brings a whole new meaning in your perseverance toward the better dancer you want to be. Remember it's the < want > not the need. When you feel the strong want... you are on your way!
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