barking at nothing

There's this dog next door that sits all day in the patio and barks at nothing. Sometimes I open my blinds all the way up and peek at it. It's a small dog. Looks like a Maltese Poodle mix. And honest to God-- it barks at nothing. Just sits there and barks.

Then I realize that I bark at nothing all the freakin time.

Today I had job interview and it went terribly. I was so nervous cause I really wanted this job. I feel like I have A.D.D when it comes to answering questions. They ask me a question and my words come out all jumbled. Then when the next person is asking the next question, i'm thinking of how badly I answered last question and all the while i'm completely panicking inside and freaking out because these 3 people are sitting and staring at me with blank faces.

I left the interview today with low self esteem and a dire need for a bucket of chocolate ice cream to drown my woes with. I called friends to vent to and walked home like the world just crashed down on me. I was making a big deal out of nothing. When I got home that dog was still barking at nothing. Still yapping away.

I think I make a bigger deal than things ought to be. I have to stop barking at nothing.