Those Feelings

There's a band called Urban Rescue that opened for Forestry a few times on this Christmas tour. E is producing their album and these guys are raw talent. They are definitely sitting on something unique and intriguing. I had a chance to hear some their newly recorded stuff and it's good. Real good. I didn't really get a chance to get to know them. There's this automatic seperation that occurs somehow when you're "with" a band. I think it comes with the responsibilities you're in charge of and have to do... in my case... anything E tells me to do.

I can tell these guys are good guys. But there's one thing that I sort of regret besides not being able to spend much time with them. Jordan is the lead singer of the band. Great voice. Kind of has this jon foreman-esque thing going on. Really sweet guy. Everyone says how he's probably one of the nicest and kindest people they have ever met. His girlfriend is super nice too.

Well, he came up to me yesterday and asked me if I was going on the rest of the tour with Forestry and I told him I was. Then he asked me "how"? I pointed to the van, naturally. But that wasn't the answer he was looking for. He wanted to know how as in, how the heck can I afford it or how the heck did I ever get an opportunity like this. I told him the lamest answer ever. I told him that everything is basically free. Except on days off. Then we have to pay for our own food.

So I felt completely stupid last night for saying that. I blame the exhaustion. I thought about it a lot and i've come up with the only answer that really makes sense. So I take back that last answer and I would like to tell Jordan... if I ever talk to him again... that God provides.

There comes a certain point when the big things don't seem that big anymore. Money is just money. Food is just food. I think God has provided me more than that. He's given me opportunities. He has put these people in my life at such a young age and they have been probably the most influential people that have ever come into my life (besides my mom of course--I love you mom.)

I guess it's a huge deal to be riding in the band van and knowing some stuff about the process of touring and business of being a band. Actually, I never thought I'd be able to ever ride in the band van. But then again, I never thought I'd know these guys. I never thought that they'd want me around. I never thought that i'd be here with them. I never thought these things. And if someone told me that i'd be doing all these things, meeting all these great people, and being surrounded my music, love, and craziness... I would have freaked out. Actually, I probably wouldn't have believed them.

All I know is that for some reason God has surrounded me with these amazing people. And being here right now doesn't seem like a big deal. So right now...right at THIS MOMENT... I want to see through Jordan's eyes. I want to sit here in E's parents home and think "this isn't happening!!!!!" for just a second. I just want to remember what it feels like.

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Feels good to remember that feeling.

It's funny how you get caught up in the now or even just the little bits of darkness more than you sit and remember those good times and feelings.

It's funny how I came up with all that just from Jordan's question.

www.myspace.com/urbanrescue

Travis just woke up. We've got 2 and a half hours. Forgot about the time change. We'll be getting there at 11:30 ish. Goody. Glad TJ is here. He can make me laugh all the way. We need to make a TJ quote book. I'm still filming the documentary... off i go.