Last Night At Home & This Is On My Mind

I don't usually find the need to change something about myself. I'm comfortable with being in my shoes. But sometimes I feel that getting out of that comfort zone and putting yourself out there in unknown territory is at times the best thing to do to renew or recreate something about yourself.

I don't like to cry. I hate crying. The last time I really cried was when I had just hurt my foot and for the first time had to sit out on my dance class. But I believe in emotions. I am a very emotional person. I just have a severe tendency to keep things inside. Which is worse than crying. I'm prone to becoming depressed when I keep feelings locked inside.

Sometimes I'm misunderstood. People think i'm a cold person; that i'm insensitive. Trust me, i'm far from it. You just have to get to know me. Break the ice. There's more to me than some dry, solemn faced girl. I have a heart and it beats for new confrontations. Have some patience with me. I tend to surprise people better that way.

I say things without thinking. It just pops out without an ounce of thought passing through the brain to the mouth. I tend to hurt people this way without ever meaning to. I never have meant to be a jerk. I don't like jerks. I don't like being a jerk. It's my mouth. It doesn't think. It has a communication problem with my brain. Go figure.

I don't believe age determines wisdom. I just don't believe it.