matters of

my head decides

but my heart refuses

my mouth talks me out of it

my shoulders shrug

and my toes tap

arms cross

my stomach starts to knot

all because

my heart

and my head

can't be friends

4am dream

i guess that i was

looking for magic

its happened too many times

with all the wrong guys

they always want a love

that stays static

but love's the only movement

that i recognize

...but i shouldn't

expect better

at this rate

i'd be lucky

if someone

wanted me

forever...