2.28.2009
2.26.2009
I Wait For Things
I got a mac. That's basically all this blog is about. I love my mac. I take it to school with me everyday. I named it. Yes, I named it. Currently it's Darcy. But there is also Frankie and Charlie. I haven't made up my mind yet. For now, it'll just be Darcy or Mr. Darcy depending on what mood i'm in. I'm planning to take it to panera on saturday to do some homework and meet up with friends to brainstorm for our next video. This mac is my baby.
I've been waiting for a lot of things in my life. In fact, i'm still waiting for a lot of things. For example, a car. I would love a car.
The things I really want take time. Because of this, I appreciate.
2.17.2009
Big Strong Girl
I haven't written in a while. My life isn't all exciting to write about right now. It's stressful and i'm trying not to eat my way out of it this time. I am, however, highly reliant on coffee and caffiene related things. I haven't been getting a lot of sleep and i've been spending way over the legal amount of hours that I should be spending at school. By the way, I think all schools should give us a max time that we are allowed to be at school based upon the classes we are taking. They should also give us free mac computers and free food or gas--our pick of course.
I've been spending my small amount of free time with my movies and tv shows such as Gilmore Girls and Arrested Development. Yes, I can watch both of them. No, not at the same time.
I've been listening to a lot of the Weepies. Deb Talan, the girl of the group, has a lot of solo stuff. Amazing. Her writing is so confusing. At first you just read it and you're kind of skimming. But then you hit something in the middle of it that makes you read it from the top again and you sit there amazed that you could miss such words. Such wisdom.
I like to read her lyrics like a conversation. Give it a try. It makes more sense some times.
Big Strong Girl
It's not now or never. It's not black and it's not white. Anything worth anything takes more than a few days and a long, long night. Don't push so hard against the world, no, no. You can't do it all alone and if you could would you really want to? Even though you're a big strong girl come on, come on, lay it down. The best made plans are your open hands. Rest your head. You've got two pillows to choose from in a queen-sized bed. Hold out for the moon but don't expect connection any time soon. Feel the light caress your fingertips. You have just begun, the word has only left your lips. Maybe in time, you will find your arms are wrapped around the sun. You're wrapped around the sun.
I've been spending my small amount of free time with my movies and tv shows such as Gilmore Girls and Arrested Development. Yes, I can watch both of them. No, not at the same time.
I've been listening to a lot of the Weepies. Deb Talan, the girl of the group, has a lot of solo stuff. Amazing. Her writing is so confusing. At first you just read it and you're kind of skimming. But then you hit something in the middle of it that makes you read it from the top again and you sit there amazed that you could miss such words. Such wisdom.
I like to read her lyrics like a conversation. Give it a try. It makes more sense some times.
Big Strong Girl
It's not now or never. It's not black and it's not white. Anything worth anything takes more than a few days and a long, long night. Don't push so hard against the world, no, no. You can't do it all alone and if you could would you really want to? Even though you're a big strong girl come on, come on, lay it down. The best made plans are your open hands. Rest your head. You've got two pillows to choose from in a queen-sized bed. Hold out for the moon but don't expect connection any time soon. Feel the light caress your fingertips. You have just begun, the word has only left your lips. Maybe in time, you will find your arms are wrapped around the sun. You're wrapped around the sun.
2.05.2009
Individoubt
I feel like two sides of myself are fighting right now. In this point of my life I feel like I want approval from others but I also want to just find my individuality. I want for people to like what I do, especially artistically, and at the same time I want to let my voice speak out the way I see it.
I'm having such a difficult time with this right now. You know when your heart sinks into itself a little? It's a mixture of frustration and low self esteem. I'm not sure who I am in times like these. I just want to play my guitar and hope that out of that, something will appear. Maybe words, a mood, a thought. Anything. A starting point.
The last thing I want to do is doubt myself.
I'm having such a difficult time with this right now. You know when your heart sinks into itself a little? It's a mixture of frustration and low self esteem. I'm not sure who I am in times like these. I just want to play my guitar and hope that out of that, something will appear. Maybe words, a mood, a thought. Anything. A starting point.
The last thing I want to do is doubt myself.